Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Optiluiz's Final Transmission
Greetings.
Wow. Has it really been that long? I feel like I owe you guys an apology. Or at least an explanation for this absence. I remember when this blog was something really important to me. A safe haven for my thoughts when I'd rather not share them with most people. To be honest, I think I left the blog because I thought I didn't need it anymore, and it didn't need me. Now they say the world is ending, and I think back to myself and... well, I guess I'll share this with you guys, as well as some art from 2012.
You might think that the blog was abandoned because I no longer had anything to write about. Au contraire, mon amis. This has been the most fucked up year of my life. I can't even begin to describe the bizarre nature of events that took place, but I don't regret a minute of it. Or maybe I do. Anyhow, it's too late for regrets. I think I really found myself this year. Artistically, philosophically and heck, I think I even found a heart underneath all the apathy.
So much changed during all this time. Things I thought could never change. I met new people, got reacquainted with old friends and even met someone I actually care about. Yeah, I know, I'm as surprised as you are. I guess I wasn't that sociopathic after all. Well, I don't know if one person outweighs the world, but to me she does. Don't worry though, I still hate people as much as before. Just not all of them...
Hell, I went through all extremes this year. From total nihilism to passion, from bliss to complete and utter depression. I even went from student to teacher in the space of just a few months. I even began hating some of the things that I cared about the most. In the end, I think it was all worth it. In the time away from the blog, I've written one and a half scripts and even a short story or two.
Anyhow, this surprise post was inspired by two things. A sense of longing nostalgia regarding this blog and all the effort that was put into it, and the end of the world. More precisely, Europe's "The Final Countdown". Yeah, I still remember. I still remember discussing a blog with Max, and I still remember reviewing movies without the proper knowledge and still getting a kick out of it. I still remember staying up late drawing chainsaws because I was going to fucking make that deadline.
To be honest, though I like to think that someone out there enjoyed our run, I know that deep down this was all for me. I learned a lot here too. Not just this year. It's just that now, there are new things to worry about, new people to attend to and new challenges ahead. So I think it's time to say goodbye. Thank you for being there when others couldn't, and thank you for helping to keep me "sane". I don't regret a single moment I spent writing here.
Sure, I'll move on to new projects. This doesn't have to be the final word. But alas, I believe it is time to bring some closure towards the Epic Club Blog. You guys are the best, and I hope you forgive me for being away for so long. Also, I'd like to thank Max, Decepti-Drew and Isa for all their hard work in keeping this thing afloat. So this is farewell. Conveniently, a short while away from the supposed end of the world. Godspeed, comrades. See you on the other side.
Chainsaw cheers,
Optiluiz out.
PS: I don't really think the world will end this Friday, but one can hope, right? We should all at least try to go out in style. Epic Club Style.
PPS: I hope we really did make this the best blog ever! Right, Max?
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